Rant (Reupload)

I'm reuploading this journal, because everything you want answered is right here in this fucking journal:

I normally never make these types of journals, but I feel like I need to address this.. I'll probably delete this later on as the day goes by.. Ever since i started taking depression medication, I've been feeling great, but I've been holding a few things back. So, this journal is my way of releasing some of the "tension" in me.

Before I get started, I just wanna point out to my followers that this journal is NOT about you. You know that I love you all to death, and I appreciate all of you SO much for supporting me.. This is just a personal rant that I need to get out.. So, please don't take any offense to this.^^" 

I've been receiving a lot of hate, about drawing homosexuals  just as my own personal "fetish". I've also been getting bashed on about the Fontcest that I draw, and the FNaF drawings, and so forth about pedophilia and shit like that.. I've also been receiving messages, bashing on my style of art.. How my lines are "too thick", or how my anatomy is off..

First: I don't have a "fetish" about homosexuals. I enjoy drawing them, what's wrong with that? Not to mention that I have quite a few friends who are gay/lesbian, and they don't seem to mind my drawings at ALL. Sure, I draw mostly guys, and hardly girls, but I'm sure that I'm not the only one.. 

Second: About drawing the Fontcest and the Fnaf stuff other things that may seem "offensive". Let me just point out; I do NOT support incest, or pedophilia, or anything like that.. I'm completely against that..

. I never said this before, but I draw those things due to my own personal experiences in my past.. I won't go into detail, but things I draw are my ways of coping with my past.. And I heard that drawing is the best way to cope.. 

Note: Please don't ask what happened, because I refuse to answer..

And thirdly: My style is my style.. I've always been looking for my own personal style, and I finally found it..

 Anatomy.. I suck at it, and I'm pretty sure quite a few people can understand its so fucking hard.. So, there's that..

Drawing thick lines is how I can handle coloring.. Let me tell you, it's NOT easy drawing in one layer, but I surely make the best of it.. And yes, I drew everything in one layer on my iPad. I found it easier for me that way. Now I'm working with layers, so maybe you hating fucks can stop shitting on my work..

Anyways.. Now, to a different subject.. I was thinking if I should even write this, cause this may cause a riot in the comments.. But..

Youtubers.. The Shippings that I've been doing as of late.. Septiplier, H20Vanoss, MiniCat, DolBent, and so on.. I've seen hundreds, even upon THOUSANDS of these pairings, and I feel like I have a personal right to draw them. As an artist, who finds an interest in these pairings, I'm going to continue to draw them, unless they personally ask me not too. 

 Now, I know that I'm gonna be getting plenty of hate anyways, since I've come so far on DA, but this just kinda burns me up. It seems like everyday I get messages on my Youtuber Shippings, saying "don't do this to them" or, "they have girlfriends". Especially the girlfriend message as of late.. Look, I KNOW they have girlfriends, but those Youtubers don't mind the pairings.. 

HELL, Jack's girlfriend actually DRAWS Septiplier! So, why can't I?

Look, I'm not gonna go into too much detail, but seeing these messages can get pretty burdensome. And, I know that I've been told to just ignore the messages, and block the people that talk smack.. And I've been doing that less and less, only because I want to try and talk to people FIRST... But, it still hurts, you know? I try my hardest to ignore those haters, and those messages, but it still hurts.. 

Anyways, I just needed to type this, and get it off my chest.. Like I said, I'll probably delete this later on, but I just wanted to point some things out, so that most of you can understand... I'm gonna try and get to sleep.. Hopefully.. 

I hope you have a good day/night, and I'll talk to you all later.